My simple life

2011-01-05T11:47:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone. Here im updating my blog again!! I got nothing better to do too.
Feeling very unhappy every day, due to my love one broke up with me for a reason of "We not suitable". Sigh..
I don't think that not suitable is a reason, its just an excuse. Cause I think in a relationship we need to give and take and also give in to each other.
I always seat down, talk to her nicely trying to solve the problem we are having. But in the end what I get in return is "I'm driving her mad".
She said "If I still carry on being with you I will go mad!"
I still cant figer it out what I did wrong.

Let me share with you guys how I treat her.
We meet up two times. First time we meet near her house. Second time we meet at tower accompany her friends shopping.
I every day after work will go home and show up myself and rest awhile. Then 8.30pm I will get up and get myself ready. 9pm shape I will reach her work place (yew tee mall). She's always off work late. But I didnt complan before. At that time I was driving company lorry, starting I dont dare to drive the lorry to fetch her. After few days she told me she dont mind me driving lorry. So I started driving lorry to pick her up after work. Then we will go out almost every night eider for dinner or finding some place to slack around. Never once I will say i'm tired dont feel like going out. Cause I wish to see her every day.
Then few weeks I bought a car. She accopany me to collect the car, I was so happy that day she the first to seat my car. We went for movie after that. Took lots of photos. HAHA!!
last time when my ex wants to go club I wont allowed, but she's the first that I allowed. I gave her trust. Only will pick her up after that, no matter how late even if i got to work next day. First time I pick her up after her clubbing selection she was drunk. She fall alseep went I was sending her 2 sister's home. Funny part one of her sister vomited. lol..
When I reach her house she was sleeping soundly. So I dont wish to make her up, I help her unbucker her seat belt so she will feel better and never off the aircon so she wont feel hot.
Waited for around 3 hours she finally move then I called "Dear wake up le." she open her eyes. Then slowly she seat up. I when over to she side and open the door for her, then send her to her lift.

When she was sick at she was at my house. I dont dare to really sleep cause I scared she need to drink water or take tissu and also scared she will cold and have fever.

When I having off day I will send her to work in the morning when I can sleep late at home.
Buying her breakfast/lunch and at the same time helping her friends to buy. Forgot to buy one packet when I was on my way home aready. I U-turn and just to buy one more for her friend.

One day she told me tonight to loyang pray. So I drove my family care down didnt know that there is 6 person going. I again go back home to change into lorry and rush back to her work place inorder not to be late.

I wanted to cut down and quit my smoking. Cause of saving money and partly wanting her to quit too.

Going two month. Dec first 2010. She broke up with me. And that's it. Game over.
now dont even want to meet, reply or answer my call. She said she hate me cause I msg her friend wanting her friend to help me.
I really treasure this relationship dont wish to lost her. Why must she treat me this way?
I really dont understand.
We even booked ticket to fly to KL going Genting. But now.. No need to go le.

Dear give me one more chance. I want u back badly!! I love you!!

2010-05-28T21:53:00.002+08:00

This message is specially for Eugene (:

Fiona posting here...

Hmmm, I am here to congrats you...
Well, last long with your beloved girlf ba... (:

I no longer can call you "baby" le..
Just takecares, and spend more time with her ba (:

Best wishes from me to you...
You're always the Best... Good Luck to you...

Good for you, Happy for you...

Take good care of her (:

http://www.leaveme-not.blogspot.com (Remember to tagg me)

2010-05-23T12:07:00.002+08:00

Hi, sweetheart Gene`!! So many days cant meet you, and you're getting busier these days...
Dont know when can still be meeting you.. There's only one day you can takeoff uh? I am bored, at home and mum dont let me out of this house going out with friends.. What the F*** `!!!! I dont like her luhh.. today giving so much attitudes le, and cant really tahan le...`!!!! Dont know June holiday have cca a ot lehhs.. Want meet you as many days as possible.. if have work then nvm ba... Hope just takecares.. and term 3, will study hard`!! cux this term, I flung my exams, all last minutes studies and maths and science alot of careless mistakes nia... >.< aiming for Poly nxt year, but know which one to go lor.. hais... tp? sp? nyp? rp? ARGHHH`!!!! I dont know luhh... ): Sob... ):

Gene Baby, I miss you everyday and nights, and really when want to text you, but dont dare.. cux later tio scold for no reasons and like bombing you with msgs... Really sorry, ... anytime feel bored just text me ba... Any number also can.. Dont want your bill getting ex, just text to my sg num then...

Muackx... I love you for whoever you're and not what you're.. (:
:x Baby Gene, takecares.. (:

texting here...
FQXE (:
i LOVE ETWJ (:

2010-04-12T18:23:00.003+08:00

Work work work.. So tired. Just finish NS not long ago. Haven even play enough.
But no money to play so need to work. Now work till no time to play even. Sad.
Tonight going work again, work till tml morning. Sure very shack!!!

2009-12-19T18:06:00.001+08:00

My New Computer!!! : )

2009-12-07T10:01:00.003+08:00

Yeah. My birthday is coming!!! 18th December!!!
Till now still cant confirm who is coming, still thinking of either BBQ or Buffet.
I think I will chose BBQ because near my house.
Birthday wish.. Alot leh. haha. Nvm just wish that all my friend's and brother will come.
Hehe 21 years old loh. Hopefully got people give me big ang bao. : )

Booking in later afternoon.. Boring!! Want to stay at home, dont want to go back that camp. Like a jail, treat us as a dog... Waiting for ORD in 3 months time. Now thinking what can I do after ORD. Study??? Work???... Sianz...
My Crimson Darling is coming back le.. This time sure can meet, because she will be in sg for 6 month. Yeah. Looking forward to see you Darling.

2009-11-29T11:09:00.003+08:00

Yeah!!! I finally make a computer that I really like. But this my last time my mum will buy for me already. Because the 1st computer is $2k but after 2 years spoil already. hopefully this new one can last more than that. Only $900. Happy Leh....
Tonight book in already sian.. But never mind booking out on the 3th dec. Bring my younger sister out with Ling Ying. My younger sister so poor thing loh. PSLE never really score will but sure better then me loh. My mum don't let her watch tv, don't let her play game. What she can do is read book only. HAIZ. That's why must bring her out or not she will go crazy.

2009-11-16T20:11:00.000+08:00

I will upload more pictures when I get from my campmates!!

2009-11-16T09:51:00.004+08:00

Now I'm too free at home. OMG!! 10 days off.
Nothing to do, keep sleeping and eating. Just came back from Aus trip on the 13th early morning 3.25am. Is not a very good trip compare to Taiwan. Rockhampton got nothing to play there, what we can do there is shop and shop and shop. At night we did not go out, we stay in the motel playing monopoly and at the same time drinking. My campmate James was drink haha. He when mad after that, he finish 3/4 of black laber in 15min. After he's drunk, we had a kingkong in our room. lol... manage to settle him down after 2 hour of rubbish. The next day we disturb him all the way.
[Our atec stage two] we did quite well (2A high), but in the hole atec stage two I did nothing but only driving, worst thing is my lightstrick broke down on the 3rd day of mission. Slack the hole day after broke down waiting for recovery. The place we sleep SUX. I try to find the picture and you all will know why I said that. 23 days I don't see any other things but pnly trees and animals human that is in SAF. I will update the pictures soon.

2009-10-12T01:15:00.006+08:00

When to bugis today to have dinner with camp mates and their girlfriend. So jealous two couple and only me single. We ate steamboat, after finish eating another friend came to join us. Finally I'm not alone. HAHA. I wanted to buy some clothes at bugis street, but the rest of them want to watch movie. So I did not get to buy what I wanted to buy. After buying the ticket, we went to catch some soft toy. My friend James can spend $50 over to catch one, but in the end he get nothing. HAHA!! His crazy... The movie was quite nice. After watching all was tired and sleepy. By the time we wanted to go home it was around 12 midnight we got no choice but to take a cab home. Again need to spend money. Sad.
Morning I still got to book in camp. Just for a few hour and then book out again. SAF really got nothing better to do. I stay Bukti Batok. And my camp is at Bedok. Damn far. If morning I need to reach camp at 7.30 I need to wake up around 5am. Is like WTF man. Need to endure, 5 more months and I'm no longer going to step into Bedok camp. I will try to update my blog more often. But frankly speaking I don't really know what to write.

2009-10-08T11:22:00.005+08:00

Ten more days to Australia. Going there for three weeks, hopefully I will enjoy. Pass few days I had a day, been scolded by my PS and still need to sign seven extra. Cant wait for my pay to come so that I can pay my bill. Lawyer letter has come. Still thinking should I pay the full amount or half of it. Find myself so stupid to go help my friend sign that line. Now he doesn't want to pay up. $700.. If I pay full amount I will left with few hundred to Australia. And the 10th of October I still need to go for my friend birthday party. Need to spend few hundred again. So stress!

2009-09-25T20:25:00.002+08:00

My English is absurd but that doesn't give you the rights to bring me down, my faults were all made in the past but why bring it up? So what if I never bother to learn from it, is that any of your business? Why are you making a fuss about what happened in the past? We were once young, immature and naive. I was to blame for the things that happened in the past, I'm suffering from my retribution for the past faults. You were the one who chose to be with me, now you're regretting and trying every ways to bring me down. I never cherished people in the right way in the past but that doesn't mean I didn't change for the better. You think you know everything about me but think twice because this might not be the true me that you've experienced with.

About the baby, it is the truth but I have my reasons for choosing that option. You thought I was heartless but were you ever in my shoes and felt the pain I was suffering as well when I had to make that decision which was killing an innocent life? Everyone of you whom were making a big fuss in my blog and laughing at me, trying to bring me down to the ground... but wouldn't you think that what comes around goes around, it is an endless cycle. I regretted not giving in to you, I regretted not holding back my temper but I've really changed. You may think I'm still that jerk/asshole who did those horrendous things to you but I admit I was in the wrong at that point of time. I was so ruthless but at times confusion would cause this as well.

You may not forgive me and I will not ask for your forgiveness. I'm not pleading you and I will not. Time will tell...

To all the people who I've done wrong to, I'm really sorry. Everyone makes mistake and there's always regrets. Do hope time would let you people know that I've changed to someone better.